Friday, December 7, 2007

The Waiting Room

It seems that I have been spending toooo much time in waiting rooms lately. When you walk through the door, you look around and see everyone else. Waiting. It's funny because everytime "the door" opens, you hope it is your name being called. You notice who goes in...who comes out....and even those who you "KNOW" came in after you but is getting called before you! But you do it. You wait. You wait in that wait for the "hope" or "promise" that the person you are waiting to see will bring the help you need.

Those waiting rooms are frustrating enough, but have you ever felt like you were in "God's Waiting Room"? I know I have been there. In many ways I feel like I am there right now. I feel like I have signed in and I am waiting and watching. On rough days, I know I am guilty of looking around and noticing who is being attended to first. I try not to.....but it is a struggle on some days. It is a struggle that i can only win by releasing the praise in my heart and focusing on the one I am waiting for. I rest in the peace He then gives.

There have been many Words and promises in my life. I get so impatient for the fulfillment. I am so hungry for the "door" to open! I know that on the other side of the door there are so many great things. In the "earth realm" there have been many false hopes. Drugs that promise to help, but end up causing more problems than the disease. I am soooo happy that in my God there are no false hopes or bad side effects. His promises are true.
In James, the Word tells me that I must learn to wait.

(James 1:2-4) I must learn to wait so that my faith may be proved. As my faith is proved, it helps me to not give up. I must learn well how to wait so that I can be strong and need of nothing.

So for now....I sit in the waiting room. However--I am not aimlessly looking through old magazines or watching the TV. I refuse to fuss about the situation to those around me. I am reading His Word and praying in preparation. When the door opens...I will RUN through it!

Friday, November 30, 2007

Doesn't it just drive you CRAZY??? I don't know how I manage to do it, but if there is one cart in a 1,000 that has a "crazy wheel" I am destined to find it. It completely makes me insane. Of course, I don't realize it until I am half way across the store, or have it half loaded.
Some of you know that this past year has been a little funky for me. I described it last night like I was trying to function with a crazy wheel. Due to the weakness in the right side I have to work a little harder to make it function with the rest of my body. occured to me this morning that much like a shopping cart (or a nerve damaged body!), when our life gets out of balance there are issues that arise. You may be headed in one direction, but it takes all the strength you have to keep it on path. Your goal is now just keeping the cart straight and not on the purpose for the trip or the task at hand. Sometimes the struggle with the cart makes you just want to drop what you are doing and completely call it quits. You get distracted. Ever see abandoned carts in the middle of the store? Marriages, ministries and families can often get caught up in an unbalanced situation. It seems the harder we try to make it work the worse things seem. There are abandoned marriages, dreams and ministries scattered all around us. It just became to difficult.

Many times the inbalance does not become apparent until there is a "full load". With the added pressure, the imbalance comes in to focus. I have also often noticed that occasionally I get the cart and may notice a little pull. Whith a quick jerk it seems to be ok so I think it is quite manageable. However, as the pressure loads the harder it gets to control the cart. What once took a small jerk to control, now takes all my strength. Seemingly small sins are like that. At first, we can control them. However, as life goes on and the pressure/burdens grow so does the problem. Proper balance is essential to finishing the task at hand and to enjoying the journey along the way.

How thankful I am that I serve a God who will help me find the balance! He loves me enough to help me find the "crazy wheel" in my life if I will only look to Him and obey what He has given me to do.

James 1:25 -"But the one who keeps looking into God's perfect Law and does not forget it will do what it says and be happy as he does it. God's word makes men free." NLV

His word gives the balance we need. It lovingly pulls our life into alignment when we allow His Holy Spirit to do His work in us. We are then free from the "crazy wheels" that make life more difficult to navigate and distract us from the goal.